We were learning about different personality disorders last week and I'm pretty sure that I've got a mixture of several. It's kind of scary. I'm slightly avoidant, meaning I somtimes shy away from social situations for my fear of rejection. I can be extremely OCD about certain things, meaning there's certain fears that I obsess over and then under compulsion, I try to resolve these fears and weaknesses. My supersitions fit into this category.
However the one that really explains me is the dependent personality disorder. I have a really hard time making my own decisions, I'd rather someone else make them for me. Or at least give me output. I'm so dependent on others at times that I've actually developed a huge tolerance for verbally abusive and dysfunctional relationships. I've actually apologized to someone for cussing at me, justifying it as somehow being my fault!! And if that didnt seal the deal, I have an intense fear of behing alone. My biggest fear is dying alone, I hate being in the house by myself and I hate doing things on my own--shopping, eating, etc. In fact, the only time I dont mind being alone is when I'm travelling on the wide open highway, singing to my favorite songs. Or maybe taking a nice poop?!
...I crave companionship.
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I'll talk to you anytime, cept when you are taking that poop
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